Dance in the dark

Art has always been and always will be representational, no matter how you look at it. Successful art elevates our response to the mysteries of life and consciousness. Beauty is not a thing to prejudge it usually appeals to me whenever I see or experience for the first time. If I were to judge things by prejudice then I would be limiting my experiences before they actually happen.

One reason why I opted towards the abstract in art was because I felt that the ideal most representations of the sacred in life was always anthropomorphic and I wondered why is it that we see all the world through our own image. Why is it that we made god in our own image and then claim it to be the other way around?

I had an exercise in art school to do a drawing for an alien being describing where we live. All I could think of was energy and how could I represent that. I think the birth of abstraction in art came from a rebellion against the rule. Somehow I believed that true creative transcendence came about through an exception to the rule.

I wanted to find that exception from within myself, open it and let it happen. Yet I had subjective preferences or prejudices that needed to be identified and let go of. Things that became important to the development of my faculties? My environment; the landscape, the culture, the ways we walk and do things like drawing and writing.

Religion was too much on intelligence, too much on what is known and proven already. I went away from the light and into the dark to walk, swim or dance.swan stew.

Mondrian claimed to be a dancer but he was a very stiff one, robotic. Mark Rothko never danced he sat still with space like ‘The monk by the sea’. Cy Twombly never really danced he had good uninhibited handwriting.

Combing my mind

So many people want to change themselves by seeking knowledge on many things. IT seem like the more we know the more rounded we become. But what is this ‘knowing’ and where is it centered? I grew up hearing people say ‘know you-self youth-man’. Only when I started to intentionally pursue art as an occupation that I was able to understand the meaning of self knowledge.

This self knowledge comes from combing my mind, getting rid of the barbs and dust that have become entangled in it from experiences high and low.

This mind that I was born with, has its limits of flexibility and which I aim to know in order to make it something meaningful to life itself. It was chance occurrence that created this mind I have and  intellect, something learned, is what will help to mold and shape it in order to evolve. But if I cannot identify the essence of my own mind then I can’t experience it with intelligence, can’t name it.

I want to make sense of what I do by doing it over and over until my thoughts are blank. I play the same rhythm again and again until they become one note.

virtual decision can become real

virtual decision can become real

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Red drawing on green field

Red drawing on green field

 

Improvised Dubb

I have to do enough of the same thing to transcend it. The repetition becomes mindless but my mind starts to question the reasons why I do what is being done. Am I flat, dynamic, mimicking others or original? So I look at other artists who I think are great.

In this instant it is Stuart Davis. His compositions are open and at times packed with things. He is very urban. I live in a rural area there are mostly trees and fields

. In the winter nothing but branches in summer, leaves dominate. But I cannot eliminate the urban from my mind, so I compose without a determination. Stuart Davis was influenced by Jazz and Cubism. I am interested in compositions by line and improvised Dubb.

A computer program does make random selections and improvise with all the possible combination but it has a limit. This makes me wonder if each individual mind have limits too. If you look at it, we are all born at a particular time and place. No two are exact, even twins. Could this be when character is hardwired into a brain and that, a persons life is predetermined but with many variables at the first breath. Chances, and level of confidence, and very early life experiences, and how we each do things, the way we do it etc, on and on is set from beginning.

berry governed It is my responsibility to know what I do when I am doing it and have the faculty to make a decision.